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Do you have a safe space?
You know, a place where you can be alone with your thoughts? Where you can heal and recharge? Where you feel physically and emotionally safe to be yourself?
If your answer is no, sadly, you’re not alone. Many of us dealing with crappy family dynamics don’t have a safe space, mentally or physically.
Since the pandemic began, there’s been an 8.1% rise in domestic violence. Many LGBTQ+ community members report feeling unsafe in both their home and school. Unhelpful family dynamics like Triangulation can make a regular house into an unbearable nightmare for many. These are just a few examples of how unrelenting toxic situations can be.
If this sounds like your situation, read on. This guide may help you build a little hope in a tough time.
What do Space and Toxic Families Have to do With One Another?
When you’re part of a toxic family, space is a privilege you don’t often have access to. That’s because trauma bonded, disorganized attachment type families don’t understand boundaries, physically or mentally. Growing up, the door to my room was always off its hinges, allowing anyone to walk in and torment me. And made it so I never had any place to hide my big emotions.
We always knew one another’s business, whether we wanted to or not. When we’d fight, there was no safe place to run.
In lieu of having a safe space, I began surrounding myself with stuff. At one point, my entire room was hoarded out with 4 feet of trash and one tiny path to my bed. It helped me then, but in the grand scheme of things – hoarding wasn’t a long term solution. That’s because it took what little space I had and made it even smaller.
We’ll talk about more affirming safety strategies later on in the article.
What is a Safe Space?
I had no concept of safety growing up. And I didn’t fully understand until I was well into my twenties when I finally was able to start my healing journey. If you grew up like I did, you may also be unclear on what a Safe Space is supposed to look like.
A healthy safe space is:
- A place where you can be yourself without fear of judgement or punishment
- A place where you can be alone if you want
- A relatively clean, stable place you can access anytime you need
- Populated with things that make you happy and satisfied
- A place where you can freely express your emotions and your creativity
A healthy safe space is supposed to lift you up and recharge you.
How do you Create a Safe Space When it Seems Impossible?
So how are you supposed to create a safe space if everything about your home life is determined to break that boundary?
I know, it seems impossible. But take it from me, there are a few things you can do.
- Read our cornerstone article on surviving a toxic living situation
- Don’t be afraid to talk to someone about your situation. There are lots of amazing and affirming trauma and family based groups on Facebook that can give you advice about setting boundaries and getting help. We have lots of groups to choose from in our Mental Health Support Groups list.
- If you have a room or even just a small personal space, try to keep it clean and organized the best you know how. I know it’s certainly not easy but having something stable like a made bed can be like an anchor in a midst of chaos.
- Set boundaries with your family when it comes to personal and emotional space.
- Learn everything you can about family dynamics and generational trauma, knowledge is power.
- Make sure you have a way to communicate with the outside world in your space. Toxic family situations can be isolating so it’s good to have a computer, phone, or internet connected device stashed in your room. If you’re in a controlling or domestic violence situation please consider getting communication assistance from organizations like Operation Safe Escape.
Here are a few more things that can help you get a little peace amidst the chaos.
Sensory Items Can Help Ground You and Make You Feel Safe.
Sensory items help emotionally ground you. That means they can help you stay in the present instead of worrying about the future or the past. Things with calming, mild scents are best – like a lavender spray for your sheets or a scented candle. Lotions and essential oil diffusers can also do the trick.
And smell isn’t the only sense to include in your safe space! You can have sounds like your favorite music or a white noise machine (which are amazing for helping you fall asleep). Weighted blankets help soothe anxiety and feel like a hug.
One of my favorite things to do is put rice in a (clean) sock and warm it up in the microwave. This makes a home-made heat pad for your feet, head, or back. The moist heat and the change it makes in my body temperature really help calm my anxiety.
Try to Keep the Safe Space Clean and Tidy
I know cleaning in this situation isn’t the easiest.
But there are some low energy, high impact things you can do to make sure your safe space is clean and tidy.
- Make your bed/couch/etc. (doesn’t have to be perfect – just straighten the sheets/pillows a little)
- Fluff and organize pillows
- Put books and electronics away
- Throw laundry into a hamper (you don’t have to do laundry, just get it off the floor)
- Do a cup check every once in a while (look around your room, collect all the cups/dishes, whisk them off to the kitchen sink – bonus points for washing but that can wait til later when you’re feeling better)
If you’re struggling with Executive Dysfunction and cleaning you might want to check these two related articles: Mental Illness, ADHD and Cleaning- 5 Neurodivergent Strategies to Fight Executive Dysfunction and Exploring ADHD and Executive Functioning.
It helped me to remember that I was doing these little chores as an act of both care for myself and rebellion against the shitty circumstances. It gave me a little sense of empowerment that was so necessary in a very tough time.
Fill the Space with Light
During some of the most bleak parts of my childhood, something that made me feel safe was light. That’s right, just having a couple lamps in my room somehow made things easier to handle.
Having a night light was really important for me (still is). That’s because, like many trauma survivors, I’m terrified of being alone in the dark. A soft, friendly night light can make a room way less scary and provide you with a little sense of peace.
Get Out When You Can
Sometimes it truly is impossible to have a safe space in the place you live. But that doesn’t mean you shouldn’t seek one outside the home.
- Sometimes a safe space isn’t a physical place. You can use the “Safe Place” visualization technique designed for Trauma Survivors to create a perfect place in your mind to escape when things are rough.
- Get out as often as you can to a favorite coffee shop, friend’s house, park or community center. These aren’t permanent solutions but they are a break from difficult living situations.
- Spend time in nature if you can
- Make a safety plan to start exiting your current situation if you feel ready
Even after you get out of a toxic family situation, it can be very difficult to feel safe. If you’re struggling with that right now, just know it gets better. It may take some time, but you’ll get there. I promise.
PS. Are you Neurodivergent or think you might be? Feel free to join MSB’s Neurodivergent Learning and Life Skills Group on Facebook. It’s a wonderful group where NDs can vent, learn, and connect with each other in a safe, non-judgemental environment.
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